When you feel too important
When your pride reaches the brim
And you take things for granted
Because you think you’re the best 

Idiotienship

You can be there with gleams of smiles on your face. 

And be laughing out loud. 

But you can’t trick me, you can’t lie to me because I know they’re all lies. 

Lies to me and everyone else. 

But then is it so important to lie to yourself? 

That you actually care? 

That you are who you say you are? 

Often times I see you trying to look all cool and calm but deep within, your emotions I know tell something else. 

You’re rapacious. 

You lied to me, in my face, one only could tell. 

You left me alone; now I feel like I'm in hell. 

If only,

The questions raised about us had made me think for a second. 

If only, 

Had I looked at possibilities 

If only,

Had I known it was staged

I wouldn’t have to pen these feelings down. Because they hurt. They really do.

Proud?

Have you ever imagined yourself at the point of death?
Have you felt death so close?
And suddenly, momentarily, you skip a heart beat?
The thought of you being erased from the surface of the earth is the scariest thing yet.
Like you mean I’d be gone?
Forgotten about?
Yet still the only thing that will suffice are memories?
Do you ever wonder who would cry?
Your so worked-hard-for possessions lying down
Do you ever wonder how it is like to be dead?
Do you ever wonder where you’d be after death?
Doesn’t the thought of life after death put you in a state of wonder?

O death,
Be ye not proud that you cause all these fears
O death,
Be ye not proud that you are inevitable
O death,
Be ye not proud that you make a heart lonely
O death,
Be ye not proud
Be ye not proud!

BestFriend

Who I am, no one really knows
I put up a mask of lies and hurt
Hoping no one will see through my disguise
No one knows except one

I met you as a stranger
Took you as a friend
I hope our long friendship
will never end.

Best Friend, the title we chose
Who are best friends really?
We should see us daily?
Well that's not true for us
Do little silly fights get in our way?
Oh if that's how it's meant to be

I don't have to be with you, to know you're there
We don't have to see each other, to know we care
We could be apart for years upon end,
And still remain best of friends.

I could skip  a heartbeat and still would survive
I could be in a car crash and still be alive
The clouds could fall out of the sky
The oceans could disappear and all turn dry
But the thought of you keeps me on

Secrets are traded
Privacy invaded
Somehow you never fail to impress.
I promise to do anything for it
I promise not rest until I'm there
I promise to take you with me.

Goodbye

Once upon a time I opened my heart to you
Once upon a time I allowed you to do as you pleased
Once upon a time I was the best thing in your life
Once upon a time there was nothing but us
I've tried so hard to understand, but I can't
I never wanted this to happen
But it looks like there's no other way
Nothing hurts more than the lie I believed
That you'd be my "happily ever after"
I wish my heart is melted so I no longer love you
I wish my memory is erased so I no longer think of you
I wish I could go far so I no longer see you
I want to cry but there's no more tear to shed
They say love is temporary
They say love lasts not eternally
I doubted
They say when love dies, love is born
I doubt it will
I guess I'll just close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.
I wish you knew how much you meant to me.

Beaten at Heart

I never imagined love finding me someday
Until your eyes locked with mine and I saw into your soul
You caught me off guard and took me by surprise
For a moment, I saw us lay underneath the moonlit sky, beneath a blanket of stars, hearing our hearts race
Now I wonder how I feel, these feelings scare me because it's new.
I want to tell you, believe me I've tried
But I guess I'm just your secret admirer
And I'll just admire from a distance

Listen O Ye Out There
If you see her
Better beware
She'll steal your heart unaware
This is LOVE, I swear
None like her anywhere.

Unknown Bars

Prisoners of our own creation.
We're Caught up With The Spirit Of Bars Who Imprisoned Our Souls.
We're Odd To Live as We Are
Ordained To These Works Of Art.
Silenced With Our Words and Bullied by our Actions.
Hatred in our Hearts
With no idea whom to Point.
Do we live our lives to be left in the end?
Caught behind bars of our Reflection.
Nothing to show the world.
But We're Of a Son and Two,
Who shines Like The Morning Dew.
From Our Generation We Add To You.
Pain and Struggles Of Today That Roars Like an Empire, We're Kings With No Crowns To Brag Of.
History Tells No Lies, We've Gained Nothing Behind Our Backs.
So We're To Die Young as Always As We Sleep.
Or Bow To The Fact That Our Ancestors Laid Their Lives For Us To Live.
So Tell Men To Run This Race as I Walk To See My Pilot, For The Night Is Of Terrors.
And I Hear The Dead Walking In Anger.


CW Jed